Listen

Please don't interrupt me when I am listening to you. It's not very polite.

When I talk, you can speak. You don't need to listen. Please don't absorb every word that comes from my mouth. You can give the same reply to completely different answers. That should be enough.

"Hey, how you're doing?"
"I'm doing fine."
"Well, you take it easy."

"Hey, how you're doing?"
"Honestly, I feel like crap."
"Well, you take it easy."

You rule the world with talk. Small talk, speeches, presentations, interruptions. The one with the biggest mouth wins. You. I speak two words and you interrupt. You cannot read between the lines. You can speak between the lines. You hear the words, but you speak before you listen. You don't need to listen. You already listen to yourself when you talk. That should be enough.

Won't it be awkward when one day you talk and there is no one left to listen?

the silence

The silence is deafening. The voices in my head are talking so fast, I can barely comprehend.
I wonder what language they are speaking, because I don't understand a word. I try to decipher the words, but nothing sounds familiar. The silence surrounds me like a fog. I try not to listen, but I can't escape the silence. Everywhere I go, the silence follows me. The only thing I can do is embrace the silence and let it lead me. I wonder where I'll go.

Random thoughts

I'm Italian. I am Dutch. I'm stubborn, I have a big mouth, I am brutally honest and I expect the same in return. I act tough, but sometimes I am not. I trust people until they prove otherwise. I can be a total bitch. I can be a complete sweetheart. I am open and straight forward. I rather know then be kept in the dark, no matter if it hurts like hell. Not knowing eats me alive. I love adventure. I hate routine. I am easy. I am difficult. I forgive, but never forget. If you screw me over, I will get revenge. When things get boring, I hate life. When I take risks, I love life.

I want to go to Africa and start my own elephant farm. I want to move to the States and start my own mob family. I want to travel all over the world. I want to have sex in the jungle. I want to kiss a whale. I want to paint 100 naked men. I want to drive to the sun without getting a sunburn. I want to become rich without getting caught.

I have nightmares. I am scared, but not afraid. I need someone around. Sometimes. I need to be alone. Lots of times. I think a lot. I say less. I expect a lot. I get little. I am a walking understatement. I am a sleeping over achiever. I live for pain. I love for lust.

Suck it up or let it out. Be honest or be gone. Be with me or against me. Kiss my lips or kiss my ass. If you cannot love me, hate me. It's still an emotion. Feel me. Touch me. You can walk away. But never let me go. Life sucks. Suck life. Before it's gone.