The pieces of my heart

I am not afraid to die, I'm just scared you'll break my heart. I am not afraid of pain, I'm just scared you'll leave me hurt.

Letting down my guard, letting go completely is all but easy. It's hard to feel trust, when time after time people show that honesty is just a fairytale. A heart can only be broken in so many pieces. After a while there is nothing left to break, but also nothing left to fix.

I show you all the pieces of my heart, not for you to fix it, but to take all those pieces and accept each broken piece of my heart. I am giving you all those pieces to keep them safe, not to smash them to the ground until the pieces are too small for your love to see them. I am asking you to cherish all the pieces and show me that even a broken heart is worth loving. 

Even if I'm scared, even if my heart could break beyond fixing ever again, I will give you all the pieces of my heart and trust that you will keep them safe. All you have to do is open your hands and accept them.

I'm still breathing

I have died so many deaths.
I have choked in my own tears while mourning for my soul.
I broke my heart while mourning for my love.
I bled dry while cutting the pain out of my heart.
I have died over and over again.
But still there must be some life left in me.
I'm still breathing.

My truth

I'm not difficult, I'm just not easy. Big difference. You don't need to understand me. I don't understand me either. Believe me I tried. It's such a waste of time. Disagree with me. Have a different opinion. I love a good discussion. See what I see, but see it differently. My truth doesn't have to be your truth. So don't expect your truth to be mine either.

If life would be simple, it wouldn't be that difficult. Love is only beautiful when it's fucking hard.
Life sucks. And then you die.

My truth.